    bright and clear again,
    Except this pain that is in every cell
    of my body, my heart, my soul.
    Chad, If I close my eyes and sit very quiet

    and concentrate...
    I can feel your tiny feet kicking
    inside of my womb.
    Chad, If I close my eyes and sit very quiet

    and concentrate...
    I can feel your tiny mouth
    sucking at my breast.
    Chad, If I close my eyes and sit very quiet

    and concentrate...
    I can see your life racing, moment by
    moment, to the beautiful young
    man you became.
    Chad, If I close my eyes and sit very quiet

    and concentrate...
    Your smile, your spirit, your life...is
    filling my brain with a blinding,
    searing light...that is burning
    my very soul.
    Chad, I am hanging on to you with every part

    of my heart and soul.
    I am trying to fill this giant hole with
    every moment of you that I had.
    Chad, I love you.

Mom